Friday, August 31, 2007
9 more days to our one month, but think back...in this one month wad has we done? nth...more den 3/4 of it we has not contacted, we has not met each other...this can be said tat tis one month is not we stead de one month, is we severe ties de one month bah...
today at school saw her, asked her if she got my keychain not, she just replied me a yes...wad's more? nth more...
haiish...between us tats nth more to say le izzit? i wonder if she rmbr, when is the last time she ever contact me...just an sms, does it cost a bomb? last time, even if her prepaid low, or she has no phone, she will by all means go borrow or wadsoeva to contact me...now? nv borrow phone to sms me nvm...when she is at home? not even a phone call...its has been so damn fucking long since we chatted on phone le k...i wonder if she knows how i feel not?
guess she dunno bah, cuz she dun even bother to contact me...N level so cnt contact? even a sms also cnt?
today went down to arena tgt wit liting; eddie; zhencong; tairong; kelvin...the guys bike back, so me & liting took bus back...at the bus stop, chatted wit liting...asked her about winstone during N level is like wad de? very little contact, but still got contact...me & her? i nv sms her she wont sms me de...
these few days i nv sms her, see if she will sms me not...no`~ not a single one...maybe cuz of her N level? i dunno...shall wait for her N level to end? think by tat time break le bah...
i really see no hope in this relationship anymore le lors...for those who knows about us ALL say, why before stead & after stead so diff de...exactly`! why?
she will nv know how hurt i am...just went to her blog before i came to post...i live up to my name..."ai ku gui (cry baby)"...i cired...seeing all those post about me, so sweet can...thinking about us now, so damn far can...sometimes i wonder, izzit a silent break from her?
feel like sms-ing her & ask her if she wanna a break...but wad if the ans is no, & i asked her this, will she think tat i dun trust her enough, from no intention to break, to we break...i really dun wish a break...
saw ricky today...he told me about he & her gf going more den 2 months le...see wenbin still loving her after so long...see liting;winstone & joey;alvin so long le...see one by one example of their relationship lasting, how about mine?
saw chio bu today too, she di siao suan me about my relationship all cnt last...act like i do not wan it to last de...all 4 break wit me de k...dun care is i like them or dun like them, is they break wit me de lors...think i like it meh? who wont wan their relationship to last?
i keep smoking, to stop my tears...stupid idea right...
she dun like me to smoke...no no...is she dun wanna me to smoke...but i dun wanna cry...
aiya`~ i complain here also no use, she wont come up to my blog de...just type out to relieve myself abit lors...
but act like got relieve dao liddat...still hen sad, still hen xiang cry...
i really forget about florence le...serina told me something good about florence, but i'm not feeling happy or wadsoeva...all i can tot of de is her...she really created alot of memories for me...i admit, all did created memories for me, but hers is the sweetest, i can confirm...but tats all past...i blamed myself for accepting her so late...i blame myself for accepting her only when her heart starts to die...i got the wrong timing...but we cant turn back time, den wad more can i do? who is the angel out there to help me?
i dare to say tat i become more & more weaker le...i cried more & more often, more & more easily...
wad's the for of saying all these? nobody cares...nobody bother if i'm crying anot...suan le...maybe i'm too strong to them le...
ehhz...no lors...not at all...is nobody even give a damn to me...
i'm at a lost again...life is really too difficult for me...can i just leave? as in, leave this world? i, LEE XINHUE, can take it no more...
& once again, i did the worng things`~
*i really need you, but i guess its impossible for you to come back...*
Thursday, August 30, 2007
so fucking lost...everything is going down slope for me...
1. frenship` everything i'm in fault lars hors...act like you all know wad i really wanna say...you all are not me, you all wont know wad i'm thinking or wadsoeva...& u all dun even bother to wanna know, jiu kpkb...sua lars hors...
2. family` UNCLE! YOU HOW OLD LIAO STILL WANNA PLAY YOUNGSTERS THINGS! PLS LARS HORS! YOU WAN MY FAMILY DIE? NOT SO EASY! I DARE TO SAY TAT MY FAMILY DE CHILDREN HAS ALL GROWN UP, WE WONT DIE! WATCH OUT!
3. relationship` just things has changed...wad's more to say? wad to say?
4. studies` wu laoshi is right, my studies has really dropped le...its time for me to jia you?
*having mixed feelings...this is the time i need you most, but you werent here`~*
Saturday, August 25, 2007
went to meet feli & serina at libary today for some study...i only did my english file and read a lil of the english hmk...went for awhile only, & i left for jec to meet joey they all supposingly...
reached jec at arn 3.30 liddat...joey they all hasen leave jp when i reach jec...suan le...so i played my kuku phone while waiting for them...when they reach, we jiu pei siokhui they all go make their class de class tee, but they did not manage to do it, cuz price is not acceptable to them...
after tat we jiu go out smoke, den jiu go eat long john...they ate, but i did not, cuz i had my lunch le...
after eat, jiu smoke again, den jiu ask sher they all pei me go toilet...
sher told me at eugene was at jec too, so teh first thing tat came into my mind is to take cig from him...haas...when we was at the toilet, eugene jiu reach le...he came to meet us... =x guess wad, when i went out, saw bastard zhizhong too lors...omg...rahhh`!
li siao awhile, we jiu go up to the second floor le...(we did not went up tgt wit bastard they all =/ )
we talk talk arn at the secong, in the end, we went inside the neoprint shop, neoprint machine zi lian...i mean all girls went in to zi lian, siokhui is the photographer, cuz she dun take pic de...ruwen keep di siao siao lors...fuck him...
after zi lian, they all decide to take neos... =) so take lors...siokhui also take...hees, but she ran away half way...den after take finish, alot ppl face black black... =( dun really know the reason why...haiish...think is sh not happy tat we force her take neos bah...
after neos, smoke...blah blah...everybody face black black de... =(
THE NEOS
& afters moke, me, sh & xy jiu went off first...they i dunno why they go off first lars, me is i got probation, puls i wanna watch campus...hees... =p
*IT HAS BEEN SO MANY DAYS SINCE WE CONTACT EACH OTHER...SADDEN...I MISS HER SO MUCH CAN...WAD HAS HAPPEN, WHY HAS WE BECOME LIDDAT?*
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
21 august is finally here...me, still in school praying for you...we cant attend ur court... =( but we will all pray for you...we all have prepared some things for you, we want you out to recieve it...
~ALL THE BEST~
i now in school, geography lesson...i geography fail lars...dunno a thing teacher is talking about...really, dunno a thing...haas...found out one thing, school comp lab de keyboard hen hao type...blah bah...
today in school nth much happen during lesson time, just tat during recess kinda alot of things happen... =x
serina helped me buy noodle...den sh dun wanna eat, in the end, xy ask serina dun care her, just go buy water for her...so serina came back wit 2 bottle of wheat grass, one for me& her, one for sh...
sh keep dun wanna drink, keep pushing to us, in the end the bottle topple & good luck to me and serina...we kena the drink... =/
i kena till more jia lat lors... =( so i went toilet to clean myself up lors...saw farhanah inside...blah`! we began our childish kids war... =p splash water; di siao hair...haas...
(saw her inside too...*smiles* )
came out, continue my mee...bell ring le, went to help joey collect her nametag...just take finish, andrea came to ask me help her finish her green tea...so drink lors...i gulp everything down...after first mouth, on the second mouth, andrea they all li siao, den i pua`! evrything slash out...rahhh rahhh`~
so for today i'm a wheat grass & green tea gal... =x
& while on the way back to class from teh parade square to classroom, her class si beside my class...omg...pai seh dao yao si...dun dare to turn my head... =/
Friday, August 17, 2007
Days drewing nearer & nearer…still wondering if you can come out not…haiish…worried…
~WE ALL REALLY MISS YOU ALOT ALOT~
Went to school as usual today…forgot to take pocket money from daddy lors…omg…no money, cnt return money…sorry sorry…
& schooled as usual today too, nth much…maybe some things did happen, but no mood to care about it…
after school, went out to smoke wit them as usual…smoke no good lars…(dunno wad the fuck I’m saying…blah blah…) smoke le, jiu go back into school wit joey, sher & Manfred…I going for Chinese competition, joey got it duty think so, the rest I dunno le…think sher go back for netball? & Manfred go back to pei joey? Really dunno…
went for Chinese compo competition at 1.30…saw nic tee, & I started beated him…haas…he very good, stand there let me beat for all I wan…I MISS HIM TOO`! ONE MONTH NO SEE LE`! AWWWW`~
& off I went for Chinese compo competition…wrote a ques on “he/she finally smiled/laugh”…wrote le 4 page, & I’m the second last to leave… =p the other ques is “my idol”…if I write my idol, I’ll sure write until slp de…tat ques is so damn sian can…
joey & Manfred waited for my competition to end, den I pei them go block smoke, den pei joey go back change, den go down pm find xy & sh…doro later came down…
I did the worng things again…I do not know wad to do, so go siao…& I’m wrong again…I shouldn’t have gone siao…I dunno lars…
& yes…I’m crying…I’m still the cry baby`~
Thursday, August 16, 2007
how many days left? 5 days? Haiish…
~WHERE ARE YOU~
schooled`~
dismissal bell went off`~
went to find chong chong they all, & meet probation officer`~
&ME & JUNWEI IS SHARING THE SAME PROBATION OFFICER…WHY HIM? AWWWW`~
the “group discussion” wit the probation officer & the rest is so damn fucking lame & boring…slp liao lars`!
after discussion I jiu go down pm find xy & joey le…sh came down later…played a lot of lame games…
& hen soon de, jiu went home le…
didn’t do much today…wad a boring day… =/
*are things still the same? No…*
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
saw chio bu today, & we somehow did chatted on you…how are you?
~MISSES~
schooled as usual, like wad I did for the other days…same thing as usual, nth much happen in school…haiish…my school life is going boring…sian…
after sch, went to smoke wit the rest as usual? Did i or did i not? Forgot le…only rmbr I pei-ed xy go home change, den go down pm mac study…I jio her study de hors…blah blah…in the end I’m the one not studying, not in a mood…haiish…
*things changed?*
I smoked again…cuz not happy I smoked again…stupid enough right…
Awhile, jiu saw sebas, & I asked him where ur mummy, he said outside, me & xy jiu run out go find chio bu le…I so long nv see her le ok…miss her`~ same time, doro came…thx for coming down… =) but I did not pei her…I’m sorry…
*I’m partly at fault for causing things changed…sorry…*
I chatted wit chio bu on alot alot of things…not becuz of no time, I wouldn’t have left ok…
So I went in mac for awhile, chatted wit the rest awhile, jiu pack bag go home le…
*I’m always at fault…sorry…dun need to tell me tat I’m in fault, I can see for myself…sorry sorry…*
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
today is not my day...izzit ur day? heard from serina saying something like ur chance of continuing inside is high...izzit true? still hope you will come out...ur wish has come true...we really became more & more good girls le...we got guai guai...haiish...
~HOPING YOU OUT~
after school, go wit the same usual grp go smoke..i didnt smoke...not gonna smoke le...for the time being i guess...
today ever since recess time jiu abit emo le...try not to emo, as in try not to show out the emo-ness...but too bad...after recess back to class is totally emo le...haiish...all becuz of her? i dunno...
today at class cried abit bah...becuz of her? i dunno...
talked to joey during the last period, math...actually is complain bah...complain tat things are changing...we arent like before...joey still ask me, "why before stead & after stead so different ars?" haas...silly qns...act like i will know lidadt...blah blah...if i know things wont be so sad le, as in for me lars...her? i dunno...
at arn 2.30 liddat, bidded farewell, and off i went to mcys le...consider all alone bah...saw zishan at the mrt station, chatted wit her until je, where she alight...& after tat, is me all alone le...I HATE LONLINESS SO MUCH CAN`!
reach mcys at arn 3.40 liddat, where by i only have to reach at 4...& i left mcys at arn 4.20 liddat...fast...
left mcys, went to take bus, suppose back to novena, den take train back, but saw 7-11...hen thirsty, so alighted half way to buy drinks...i whole day nv drink any water lors...after buy finsh drinks, went to wait for bus...cuz all alone mars, den still early, so intend to take 166 back to clementi, den take 99 home...
bus come le, happy happy board the bus, but ghost know i lost my ez link card ars...nabeis...alighted at the next stop, cuz cant board mars, no money...suppose tot of go back just now tat station & look for my ez link card de, but is far de lors...pua byebye...
sit down by the sit & find my card, really cnt find lors...sian...see my wallet...is even a pathetic 10 cents also dun have lors...haiish...nv been so pathetic before...
so turn arn & wanting to borrow 55 cents to take back to clementi...den at celmenti den see how bah...the uncle hen good, no change, so gave me $1... =)
i almost stupid stupid go drop the $1 coin for just one trip lors, lucky last minute i go nearby de old chang kee & change 50 cents 50 cents... =)
thx da girl girl for wanting to come down novena pass me $$, but dun wanna bother you...sorry...bukit batok to novena not near, so didnt wanted to waste ur time...thx anyway...
166 finally came...dropped 50 cents in, the uncle didnt say anything, just let me in...so good...haas...went to the upper deck, still got chinese oldies to listen somemore...haas...is music play...dunno is i thinking too much or really got play...first time on bus hear music play...haas...
on bus tot of alot alot things...& THE JOURNEY IS DAMN FUCKING LONG LORS...slept halfway through the journey... =/
1 hour past, den i reach clementi...haiish...tired...
alighted the bus, & off for 99...i dropped 50 cents in again, & the uncle let me in again... =) bus 99 de journey to me still ok, take before alot of times le...its consider long, but not as long as from novena to clementi... O.o
nv slp during the bus 99 hourney, just stun throughout...haas...alone mars, nth better to do...haiish...
7 plus liddat, reach home le...called bastard, cuz he wanted me to call him...in the end just to chat only...sian...at arn 7.30 liddat, hanged...cuz i insist tat i wanna call my po... =x
after call po went to eat, after eat bathe, den jiu came to use comp le...nobody at home now...papa went for his drink le, den korkor; RAINjie & mama went out to buy my phone le...haas...happy...wonder wad model they will buy.. =)
& SHE HAS MSGED ME...loves`~ <3
Monday, August 13, 2007
how many days left? the mssing you feelings seems liek it has been so damn long le...
~MISSES~
nth much happen in school today...
after school go smoke as usual, den to interchange pei joey go buy mc...cuz she's not going for band mars...
took 157 there...
the fucking bus driver si eh gei gao lors...we are in our school uniform, & we pay childrens fare got wrong ars...pua cb...me & xy manage to pass wit children fare cuz we did scan my card, & it shows tat my card no $$ le...but joey they all no card, den suey lors...tat uncle hen cb lars...
we not happy so after we got to our seat, we blast techno, vandalise his bus blah blah blha...we are just buey song can...
reach le, sher go find song wee, den we go in register all these first lors, sher & song wee come later...
today our mouth hen itchy also, keep buying things & eat...blah blah...
after buying mc, go back jurong, den jiu go joey hse, watch final destination 3, which xy borrowed fron andrea i think...
tat show gan er xin lors...burn alive; head kena squash; head kena knife chop off & alot...omg...
i returned home fron joey hse at arn 7 plus closing 8 liddat...& i reach home at 8.30 liddat only lors...sad...late again...
*haiish...& i miss you alot alot...*
Sunday, August 12, 2007
days to your release is grewing near...heart thumping faster & faster...wondering wad sentence you will get...hope is a sentence good for you bah.. =)
~WE MISS YOU DAMN FUCKING LOT LOT~
raining so heavily now...sian....& i'm shivering cold...brrr...
so long nv slp so late le...ytd on phone wit "da girl girl" until 3 liddat...after hang up the phone, pack my things abit, jiu smoke...after smoke, dun care did i on air con anot, i just "PAH`!" doze off...haas...i just lie flat on my bed & SLEEP`! suppose i must hug onto something den i can slp de, but ytd, i just lie flat & slp...haas...yes...i got hug, i hug my bed...haas...
today woke up at arn 3 plus...when i woke up i'm hugging my pooh bear lors, i dunno when i took it & hug de...haas...stupid me...
woke up, check my phone, rpely soem of the msg, den went to wash up le...after wash up, jiu eat abit...i damn stupid lors...know tat once i wake up cant eat anything de, & yet i went to eat...shitty me...lucky eat abit only...
i eat & watch the NDP`07 at the same time...if i'm not wrg, i saw the BB part, & i saw our school de ALVIN CHONG...omg... =x
i did not see the others who participated, i only saw ALVIN CHONG...BUANG ARS`!
after eat, jiu go bathe & went down to pm meet xy they all le...on the way there, i smoke...knn...i wan die le lars...all thx to the food i ate just now, when i reach pm mac, the first thing i do after i put down my bag, i went to the toilet & vomit...rahhh`!
at pm mac, did abit of my hmk, & was kena di siao all the time...they wont feel sian de lors...dis iao so long le still di siao...ESPECIALLY MY GOOD TWINNIE` XINYU`! you good...zuo twinnie yao zuo dao zhe yang...
haas...she went to call her come down to bring umbrella to me, to send me home...still tell her i got stomach ache...rahhh`!
but in the end i go home myself wit her umbrella... =)
& she went home wit only her jacket de cap...sian... =(
I LOVE RAINY DAYS?
Saturday, August 11, 2007
another day had past...how's you inside le? dun think things will be fine for you inside...but just hope that you will be as healthy as before...wadeva more, health comes first... =)
still thinking for 21...all the best...*pray hard*
~ALL THE BEST FOR YOU~
its a damn boring day today...damn early jiu wake up le, 8 plus jiu wake up le...not like me huh...after wash up & lie on my bed do nth suppose...den see my phone, 10 le...fatser wake up go wtch campus superstar, cuz miss teh one on monday...all sing fast fast de songs...wahhh`! fast fast de song dun suit most of them lors...sian...in the end joanna & dunno who out, forgot le...plus not interested if he's out or not anyway... =p
after campus, jiu use comp awhile, forgot surf wad le...think is anyhow go see ppl de blog & chat in msn bah...
arn 12.20 liddat, i leave home tgt wit RAINjie to go & had our lunch...had chicken rice at 907...one plate of chicken rice cost $2 only, RAINjie stun...why so cheap? haas...teh chicken rice is nice, has been eating it sicne young... =)
RAINjie ordered a home made lemon tea, & i ordered wadeva...after the rice, i "bite" on the WADEVAcan...i "bite" the lid open, & there's 2 uncle beside me stun...
"girl, how u open it de ars? bite open ars?"
"erm...yeah..."
"wahhh`~ so 'pro' ars? "
"huh? erm...orh ok...thx thx..."
si bei malu lars...me & RAINjie quickly leave ars...
we 2 mouth still itchy mars, so intend to go central to buy some finger food & eat...today i got $$ k...haas...
reach central le, i suggest go flea market awhile...didnt know there got a bookstore lors...blah blah...kuku me...so went to bookstore first den go flea market...
we spend damn fucking lots of time at the flea market & bookstore lors...at flea market, walk walk see see...especially at the jigsaw puzzle...spend lots of time over there, & made alot of jokes within ourselves too...hahas...
after flea market, went to the bread shop...at the first bakery, RAINjie bought a waffle, den at the 2nd bakery, RAINjie bought 3 durian puff, & me? i baby...go buy the small donuts...those in the small ball de donuts...haas...
after the bakery, went to buy bubble tea jiu go home le...had a nice chat wit her... =)
reach home, check time, & its 2.20 le...WE SPEND 2 HOURS FOR THE LUNCH...haas...& i'm meeting xy; joey & sher 2.30 at pm...haas...reach home, chiong abit of things, den jiu go out le... =x
reach pm, do hmk...& talk cock abit...at arn 6 liddat, manfred send sher home, xy go my hse continue do hmk, doro waiting for us under my blk...cuz sher told us tat the mac ppl say at arn 6 liddat, they dunno have wad shit on lars, & say we can return after 8... =.= my curfew time is 8... so xy go my home do hmk lors...
doro reach my blk le, but we just leave pm... =p
doro & xy slack & do hmk at my hse awhile...arn 8 liddat, i think so lars, jiu leave le...doro going to meet amelia, i think so, den xy dunno how to go out of my estate, so needa leave wit doro, need her to bring her out...haas...
& IS SHE THE ONE FOR ME? HOPE SO SHE IS? DUN WISH FOR ANOTHER HEARTBREAKING SCENE`~
Friday, August 10, 2007
hope to do things again wit you...missing the days tgt wit you...
~WE ALL MISS MISS YOU~
went to serina de hse to meet xy & serina first...not long after, sh came...keep kena di siao...shitty them...wad zuo sisters yao zuo dao zhe yang? i very good de ok...haas... =D
dunn at wad time, leave for jec to meet doro le...GOING TO WATCH JAY CHOU DE SECRET...HE ROX CAN... =)
had some jokes all along...dun care is in the public anot, dun care at bus stop, or BUS, or jec, or on the way to imm, or wadeva shit lars, keep kena di siao... =.=
btw, the movie is so nice can...love it so damn much...gonna watch it again...i watch tat movie watch buey sian de...haas...
after movie, jiu pei doro go imm buy his papa de presey le...on the way there they di siao until so malu can...keep far far away from them ars...throw face... =x
after presey, jiu take shuttle bus back to boon lay...ps ba0beiix again...she's going to je, and we are returning to bl, so had to ps...sorry ba0beiix...
on the shuttle bus, got a couple dunno wad they doing ars...kum pua imitate lors...pls...puplic`! blah blah...but cnt blame...tat bastard also liddat de...dun care public or wad, also hen imitate wit his stead de... =/
reach bl, bid farewell to xy; doro & sh, & i walk home...ez link card pok liao, so not gonna take bus...
GUESS I'M THINKING TOO MUCH...SHE'S THE ONE BAH...?
Thursday, August 09, 2007
today is national day...mine is fun...how's yours? dun think it will be a fun one bah...nvm...when you're out, will let you have a fun time...promise...to make up for ur time inside... =)
~YOU WILL NV BE FORGETTEN~
today's national day...went to kbox tgt wit sh; xy; serina & serina's sister plus frens...
had fun`~ sing k sing till siao lors...shout here shout there, sing this sing that...haas...not gonna update much on kbox...too long to post... =p
half way through, went down to CJ, ex workplace...saw huishan they all...so high can...misses them alot alot too...suddenly think back the time whne i work there, thou not long, but the memory is there...yet they still rmbr me...touched...go down awhile, jiu go outside carrefour find ppl buy cig le...i tried buying myself, but failed... =(
& found a guy help me buy cig...xy says he's shuai...to me, ok lars...got help me buy can le... =x
after buy finish, jiu go outside smoke,,,sh came down to join us...& after smoke, we jiu go up back to kbox le...they keep smack my neh neh... =/ cuz i smack theirs first...hees...
went back to kbox, sing sing for a moment, den jiu go abck down to CJ again...this time saw palani, ex manager & guna; feimao they all, ex collegue...high le lars...saw yousheng too...outside fren lai de...yousheng is wit his cousin i think so...is a baby...wit tat baby, he look so much like a unvcle...blah blah...no offence...
back to CJ, had a small chat wit palani...he asked me if wan go back work...i hen xiang, but wit this current status, dunno if still can work anot...haiish...& SUPPOSE WAN USE MY OWN MONEY BUY A CHILLI FRIES DE, BUT PALANI TREAT ME...WOOTS`~ so high... =D
smuggle the chilli fries into kbox & started eating...those who can take beef, all sya nice...of cos lars...CJ de food leh...got standard one ok...haas...but the sad thing is FRIEDAkor not working tehre anymore...hees...actually know kor not working there anymore, but didnt know tat eddie not working there anymore too...eddie now working at vivo dunno wad shop, & kor went there interview...this is wad huishan told me...sadded...
me; serina; sh & xy leave kbox early...cuz later the jiejies are going other place...xy; sh & serina went to CJ to have a lil snack, & i went home alone...
saw xaiver & his wife on the suntec shuttle bus to city hall mrt station...today high le lars...had a small chat wit xaiver, i jiu went to a seat & sit down le...
alight shuttle bus, went to have a puff, den went to take mrt...sms all the way wit blah blah...
SORRY TO YOU`~
but i shall not trust fate all the time i guess...sometimes must thinkof myself abit ya~
follow all advices given, cherish all advices...
if the advices is a good one, it brings you no harm... =)
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
you did not get a chance to see me march...hoping so much tat you can see it one day, but i guess, i'm thinking too much...
~FRENS ARE FOREVER~
today schhol had their very own ndp...its only a small parade & some concert items...
& i'm involve in the parade...mr wong really made it happen...i really went back to the flag barrier... =D *happy*
hees...& i'm late for the reporting time as usual...kena suan by the BB officer...you good...
but for rc, i'm not the latest lors...amani, our dear SWO is the latest lors...sian...
parade consider going on well bah, JUST TAT WHEN I MARCH NEAR A BUNCH OF GALS, THEY LAUGHED LOUDLY, CAUSING ME TO UM CHIO...YOU ALL GOOD LARS...ZUO SISTERS YAO HAI WO... =x blah blah...
after parade, the parade ppl, went to get change & proceed on to the hall for the concert items le...we rc gals at the back of the hall si bei siao ars...aziz still came ask us gals to calm down abit...haas...malu...
& mr wong sang`! whaoh whoah`~ GO GO MR WONG`! haas...
after the concert items, parade ppl went back to their own classes for the reflection part, after tat, we are being dismiss le...
went to smoke outside blk as usual, den to jp to eat le...they eat, i didnt...dun feel like eating...
after eating, dunno do wad, only rmbr sher go pierce her nose...IT DUN SUIT HER K...haiish...bo bian...she wan to pierce...no matter how hard i try, she still pierce...haiish...sorry SIR`! she still pierce in the end...sorry...
after she pierce, dunno wad we do, we jiu go doro hse le...say is go doro hse lars...last minute, me & sher go find wenbin take cig, & xy went to doro hse...had a long counciling session on for sher...think she will really change bah...
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
today is the 5th post for the sake of her again...misses? still there, always there...amount? silly question...its indescribe-able de alot liao...haiish...when will she be back? when she's back, how will things be like?
i these 2 days hen luan, hen fan...dunno if i'm doing the right thing not...i've returned RNKL everything...is this right or wrong? (just nice...now, just nice the tv is showing a part of a guy, remorseful about wad he have done...he have taken his own blood daughter nude photo...HE'S A DAMN FUCKING BASTARD`!)
to me, i'm just like him...I'M A FUCKING ASSHOLE`! once again, i hurted her...and this time, i'm sure is a very deep one...kum pua sorry...haiish...
am i doing the right thing not? i followed my fren's words, i did it the hard way...is this right? hurting someone is not nice, i dun like it... =(
in front of others, i'm as siao as before...to cover the real me...haiish...my mask is still there...tot i've taken it down le...but i'm wrong...haiish...
MISS HER`!
but
SORRY TO ANOTHER HER`!
Monday, August 06, 2007
missing you`~
missing you`~
missing you`~
the misses is out of words to describe le...
went to sch as pernormal, but i did not attend lessons today...our school is having an exchange programme with the china Dalian students, and the ne ambassador is involve in it..so, i also suey suey kena involve in it too lors...
i'm being patnered with a china boyboy...he is so damn fking cute k...school prepare a small gift for them, & they prepare their own present for us...omfg...that boyboy gave me a four leaf clover, is expensive de k...got take plane come here de k...
den his fren agve me a 10 colour ball point pen, and a hp accessories...also got take plane come here de k...haas...
before they leave for SDC, i went up the bus to pass him my nametag for a memorial to him...he so shy can...haas...all thx to miss lim lars, sabo me say if i give him my nametag, & suey suey kena caught by DM will be scolded...rahhh...
but in the end, he still accepted it...haas...
HE IS CUTE`!
after school, went out to school to smoke, as usual...blah blah...after smoke i slack around jiu go back sch for ndp training le...today one round jiu done le, they say their performance is ok le...but the flag barrier got change plan...i'm not involve le...sian...train so long, not involve in the end...me & flag now got gan qing le k...haas...
after the round, rc wanna train for another round...msg pass down by mr wong...alot of cadets kpkb lors...sian...mr wong's msg kp nco...rahhh`!
i nth do, so find myself sumthing to do lors...my phone & wallet is wit doro, ask her help me keep, cuz serina just lost her wallet tat day...
all along, i try to find something to do lors, cuz doro; xy tehy alls ay only wait for me outside the sch at 6.30...sian...i for nth, just to find something for myself to do, i went to find anger for myself...the sub con, reflect pls...ur dreesing...haiish...but afterall, i believe tat they sure can make it on the actual day de...after tat, went to teach the 2 sec 1, who is in the sub con too...haiish...one act dao yao si, one really work hen hard, but just lack att lil bit...jyjy... =)
after everybody has gone, play wit val val they all awhile...they are doing soe drills, & i'm only there to di siao only...haas...
when i came out changed into my mufti, its only 5.30 lors...sian...managed to contact claire, end up, suppose wan meet her at pm first de, but when i go out of sch, saw doro & xy on the cab, so they tongbang me...haas...went to doro hse, wait for her to chnage, while me & xy smoke outside her hse staircase...was kena caught by doro de mama lors...omg...kena nag for awhile she jiu go le...
& doro was being shouted by claire, cuz i did not go down meet her, instead i go wit doro they all...in the end, xy & doro helped me explained to claire, & she forgive us... =)
today de story really hen long, shall update u all verbably (cuz lazy to type) if you all are interested bah... =)
Sunday, August 05, 2007
this is 4th post for the sake of her after she is inside...misses`!
& there is 15 more days to 21st, not including today`~
haiish...cant even go & visit her...could anything be more saddening den this...stupid case, cause everybody so much trouble...but, rmbr she say before, do le, den dun regret...i dun regret, but i just hate this kind of life...cuz of this case, she got to be remanded for 3 weeks...cuz of this case, life changes...haiish...
~I MISS HER~
woke up at 11 plus today...whole family sot le...
mama: this morning for nth give me $10...say for me, cuz i'm not goign to jb tgt wit them...
jiejie: next time when i come back home i teach u on ur studies...omg...no pls...
kokor: this morning bo dai bo ji buy bubble tea for me...good huh...
papa: NEVER SHOUTED`!
=x
& i almost tio bird shit`! walk until half, tgt wit doro & xy...was showing them my hurted area from bro's bed, & piak...bird shit flew from the sky to the ground...haas...
& i help out wit some work, for doro's mum & dad...such a good child huh...papa mama got teach me to help ppl... =/
Saturday, August 04, 2007
today is the 4th day le...misses growing, but did not show it out...if i show it, is sure with tat emo face de...i emo, sure others emo...so one for all, all for one, i smile...faking siao, faking smile... =) but still, misses is there...
went to bugis today...today bugis kum pua alot of ppl lors...reach bugis, go smoke, after smoke, go walk walk...
after walk walk, go junction take neos i think...take neos wit joey, sher, serina, yiqing, shuhui, amanda...got to know new frens ya~ =)
after the first neos, joey, sher, serina, shuhui & amanda went to take another time...i pok gai le, so nv take...oh yea, tis time liting alos got take...hees...
after neos, went outside neos shop, take grp photo with phone... =x
after grp photo, jiu go smoke agn...almost smoke finish, dunno wad they say got ssb or wad ars, all threw away the cig, and plan to go eat...
walk to bugis street there, they eat burger king, me, xy, amanda go out smoke, cuz we are not eating...we chatted...awhile later, doro came out, den anita came out...slowly slowly, all come out le... =p
we smoke, chat, take photo, jiu plan to go home le...cuz me & anita got probation...amanda had to go home early, serina had to go home blah blah blah...in the end, me, anita, doro, xy, sher & siokhui went to take mrt to boonlay suppose...the rest dunno they go where...
so we hug hug, & byebye`~
on the station, sher in the end wanted to wiat for song wee, so we left without her...
on the train, we chatted, & take photo...in the end, suppose only got amanda, serina, doro & xy alight at je...amanda & serina go home, xy & doro go imm...end up, we all alight at je, cuz doro asked me to go imm wit them too, except for siokhui...me & anita in the end pei doro they all go imm, persuade siokhui alight, she dun wan...so byebye`~ and we parted wit her on the train...sorry to ps u... =/
go imm, find serene di siao her... =p she working at mac too...doro helping her fren out in work...& SERENCE TREATED US DRINK WIT HER OWN $$... =D thx serene, but i'm gonna return her... =)
& doro treated me and xy sundae too...at first xy li siao ask doro treat sundae, & i also di siao ask her treat...in the end i shouted gei siao de lars, but she still bought it...thx doro... =)
after all these treats, we went to shuttle bus stop & waited for bus...hen long lors...i almost 8 liddat den manage to board the bus leh...knn...late le lors...
when reach boonlay, ma & anita went to take 242, doro & xy dunno go where...byebyes`~ doro & xy... =x
on the bus, me & anita chatted, NICE CHAT MY FAIL PATNER`~ =)
reach home arn 8.48 liddat...late le... =/ & babyCELESTE, my cousin & her husband is here at my hse...babyCELESTE is cute de lors...btw, babyCELESTE is my neice... =)
play wit babyCELESTE for awhile, went to bathe, & here i am blogging...comp is spoilt...i'm using keyboard to control everything now...sian...
haiish...shall stop here again...only wanna say,
~I MISS YOU ALOT~ x3
Friday, August 03, 2007
today is the 5rd day le...misses grows...everyday a letter, and try my best to post blog, doesnt seems enough for me...i wanna do more for her...feels tat i've nv done enough...feels so little of me...misses grows...other den tat, wad still grows? dunno...
really feeling lost recently...very hot tempered recently...venting my angers on everyone...sorry all...dunno wda i'm doind...just now in school after cca quarreled with a goup of ppl...they rushed towards rc, and bang into alot of them, causing them to fall...knn...push my cadets, push my dear frens...pua cb...val even cried while quarreling...
but not all of them are there...we hand this thing over to mr wong, he will report to office bah...hope they will get wad they deserve...most of my cadets are only sec one lors...they are still having tat pure heart ok...most of them is scared, and some cried...pua cb...still got one dun dare go home, cuz she say wad, some of them hate her, they will chiong towards rc becuz they wanna aim on her...i dunno...
only manage to talk to some...nvm...sua...at least some already promise to give an apology to my cadets le...
haiish...they owe an apology to my cadets, and i owe an apology too all of them arn me...i seems rebellious these days...dunno why...others words just cant to get into my head....whereby my mind is totally blank...suan le...SORRY ALL~ once again, sorry~
i still miss you~
Thursday, August 02, 2007
today is the 2nd day she's inside...everybody misses her lots lots...haiish...
got a news, saying tat i cant go visit her, got case de ppl cnt go visit her, will harm her...haiish...
miss her, and cant see her...
haiish...really as wad we all say, 3 weeks cant see her le...haiish...
today in school, did nth much...just laze arn...cant really concentrate much...forgot wad i really did le, just rmbr after sch, went to find her mum, den her mum tell us alot alot of things...hen xiang cry, but i'm not gonna cry ya~ gonna be strong~
after find her mum walk walk awhile, den go smoke...smoke le go medical center find claire's mum...she is having rashes...her rashes hen jia lat wors...almost whole body red...omg...after tat, slack at medical center, wait for her mum finish doc...her mum have to go to A&E wors...serious...her mum rushed to alexandra hospital, leaving claire at the medical center, ask her help take med...after tat, pei feli go eat, jiu say wan take bus go home le...my bus reach first, so i board the bus, and when i reach home, claire they all, forgot who le, tell me in the end they go school find pei shan they all...nvm...sua...
haiish...end her bah...nth much to say, just the same old words...
~WE MISS YOU~
