Wednesday, February 22, 2006
guess where m i nw.. lol, i'm in de sch comp lab havin IPW lesson.. i'm in de front row worz, stil can online.. i rawks marz..?? lol..
its already de second period nw, tats mean i dun hav much time left in tis rm.. haix, sianx.. later still mus face de kalai.. later ish english.. she nv teach anything de lorz.. liddat hw we pass our english..??
jus nw in class keep changin mui earin tuu andrea de.. haix, i really dun fit tuu wear earin.. it sucks on me..
sianx arz.. keep goin through de same things agn n agn.. nv teach new things.. den de teacher face oso nt shuai de.. see liao i wanna puke..
jus nw go tuu msn, online de.. haix, nobody online.. gt gt.. bt dun feel lyk chatin tuu them.. damn sianx nehz.. wanna slp liao larz..
zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZ...
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
todae after sch went tuu canteen eat lunch tog wib andrea n aimee. after tat, we went tuu jp cuz andrea sae she wanna buy bag. 1st shop tat we went ish wallet shop. me n andrea both saw one pencil box, long de, black de, material very gd de. if i'm nt wrong, it cost $12.90.. so expensive sehz..
after tat, we jus walk walk arn jp, goin tuu yellow, triangle, ice lemon tee n so on.. jus walk in tuu any shop tat sells shoulder carry de bag n earin.. actually earin ish i wanna buy de, bt after walkin into so mani shops searchin fer earin tat suits me, i suddenly found out tat wearin earin dun suit me sehz.. lol.. den in de end went tuu buy sm ear sticks oni..
after buyin ear sticks, cont walk walk arn jp.. go comics connection larz, go buy hp pouch larz, go buy food eat larz, go buy comb larz n so on.. n our last station ish value shop.. we wanna buy sm tibits in there, bt when we open our wallet, kau..!! i oni left less den $10 n andrea oni left less den $20.. i bought $30 tuu sch todae n andrea bought $50 worz.. we spend money lyk water flow liddat, a few hrs den so much gone lerz. den in de end oni bought sm tibits n went hm.
while we r walkin tuu de interchange, we saw one stall tat sells emily/nightmare/hello kitty de stuffs, went up tuu de stall tuu look look arn.. den andrea saw one sort of coin pouch, hello kitty de, transparent de, kinda nice.. guess de price..?? $10.90..!! its kinda a small coin pouch lehz.. (i try tuu get a photo of tat pouch n post it up nex time..) n andrea bought tat coin pouch lehz..!! so expensive n she bought itz, she's so rich sehz..
den we went tuu tak 179 n go hm. on de bus, she told me tat her papa due tuu sm reason, i lazy explain, goin tuu buy her a laptop sehz.. kau..!! she really very rich sia.. den i tell her, "i dun care larz..!! if ur papa really buy u one laptop, i wil go tuu ur hse everydae tuu play de laptop nia.." den chat chat abit more, den we part lerz..
once reach hm, den i went tuu tak sm pic of de things i buy todae, den i online write tis blog entry lerz..
pic of de things ii bought todae..
tis hp pouch cost me $4, kinda cheap sehz..
bought tis at comic connection.. if i'm nt wrg it cost me $2.. nice..?? ii lyk it..
de comic bk ii bought.. Fushigi Yugi bk 2.. haix, stil gt 7 more bks tuu go..
de accesories ii bought todae.. can we bring sharp ended comb tuu sch..??
saw tis cute package de tibit, so ii bought it..
n when euu tak a closer look.. .. ..
cute marz..?? lolx..
de bac of de package..
n when euu tak a closer look agn.. .. ..
its extremely cute sia..
Monday, February 20, 2006
very little ppl wil says tat they r havin a family on bad terms right..?? lol.. i'm havin one right nw.. normally one's family ish livin happily, harmonously together.. mine ish always havin fights, bickerin n shoutins everywhere..
i'm already extremely flare up wib mui own flesh n blood mother lerz lorz.. i really had enough lorz.. everything she does she tot ish de correct one, no matter wad we do ish jus shit tuu her..
i already folded mui clothes properly n put it at de side of mui bed liao lorz.. tis mornin she juz tak all de clothes n wash, no matter ish it clean or dirty de, she juz bring all tuu wash.. no need her be such a busybody lorz.. she tak mui clothes n wash ish alright wib me, bt she juz wun mak clear wib me if i needed those clothes tuu wear later on anot..?? she juz wash mui socks n p.e. attire liddat. i need tuu wear it later fer sch de lorz..!! i had de rest of mui socks washin, oni left tis pair, bt she juz bring itz tuu wash. as a result of her smartness, i had tuu wear mui old socks, which ish considered spoilt..
when i reach hm frm taf programme todae, i jus simply use a very normal tone tuu tell mui very clever de mama nt tuu touch mui things anymore. n mui papa say tat i'm bein rude tuu mui parents, nv treat them as mui senior or wad so eva, nv respect them.. pls lorz, wanna me respect u as mui parents at least do sumthing tat makes me proud first lorz. always bein de unreasonable one, always bein de stupid one who started de fight, n i'm always de one who kena scoldin, kena beatin..
had a very stupid bickerin with tat clever mama agn. bein de stupid unreasonable one agn. todae papa so piss off, she expect me ask fer pocket money frm him, wanna me kena scoldin or wad..?? in de end, papa wake up, gimme one idiotic de scoldin, bt i one ear in, den de other ear out, jus lyk i not stupid too one of de sence. in de end no money taken, bt a stupid scoldin fer nth.
all de ppl in mui hse jus simply hatez tat unreasonable mama. tell her alot of times tat i hatez her tuu de core, bt she jus wun do sm little soul searchin on herself. mui papa ish jus simply dun wanna tok tuu her anymore, mui sis ish happy de times den tok tuu her, nt happy den heck care abt her, mui korkor ish when needs money den tok tuu her, dun need money den lock himself in de rm or go fer outtin.
sumtimes i really wonder if i'm really her real flesh n blood lorz.. really feel lyk goin fer a dna test or sumthing tuu test if we r really realated. u cant find any part of me tat resemblems her lorz. nt mui attitude, nt mui look. bt both mui look n mui attitude resemblems mui papa lorz. we r both so stubborn, we both look alike too..
if i hav tat ability, i really wanna leave tis hse n live on mui own. i think i wil b happier livin in those kind of lifestyle.. definitly..!!
quote frm i not stupid too:
FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You
| Greed: | Medium | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Medium | |
| Sloth: | Very High | |
| Envy: | Medium | |
| Lust: | Medium | |
| Pride: | Medium |
Try this Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
dont really understand what it means worz.. just read someones blog and saw this test, therefore i took it..
Saturday, February 18, 2006
i've been toleratin u fer very long liao lorz.. tot tat everybody in de world lyk u liddat, tot u very pretty liddat, tot u gt loads of frens liddat..
everytime tokin tuu others, den u juz cut in liddat, so rude. scared i snatch them frm u ar..?? i no need tuu snatch de, since they dun really lyk u at times too..
den others guys juz merely glance at u lorz, den u say they lyk u. so bu yao lian..!! todae change wib u in de toliet, saw u let down ur hiar i lyk saw a ghost liddat, do u koe tat..?? lyk u jus kena in an explosion liddat..!! really feel lyk lol..
den ur attitude lyk a auntie liddat, so sumpat.. guys wil lyk u ish sure they have lost their mind or they r retarded.. or mayb retarded guys wil nt lyk u too lorz..
den always hold ur hp in ur hands. ppl sms-ing, gt ppl sms us u nt happy ar..?? ppl gt frens tuu sms with u dun hav u nt happy arz..?? always hold ur hp in ur hands fer wad..?? ur handphone nt tat expensive, ur handphone de features nt tat gd oso. infra so slow, no bluetooth, no mp3, no nth. oni gt a stupid camera n gt infra service, tats all.. nobody wil wants itz lorz. ppl wanna steal oso steal 3G phone or mp3 phone marz, steal urs fer wad..?? sell oso cnt sell much money, mayb juz $50 or even less den tat, de model so old liao.
den u juz wun spare a tot fer others lorz. everytime eat XXX, u nt sian others oso sian lorz..!! XXXXXXXX dun hav halal food..?? fuckin ass larz..!! XXXXXXXX ish such a big company, hw can they dun sell halal food..?? use ur brain lorz..!!
always sae gt ppl ask u fer stead, always sae u lyk tis guy u lyk tat guy. u lyk other ppl ish nt wrg larz, i nv stop u frm lykin. bt u sae alot of guys ask u fer stead.. i grow suspicious.. hear - - - - - - sae gt ppl ask her fer stead, u dun wanna admit lose, so anihow sae one ish its..?? hw can - - - ask u fer stead where he already gt stead liao lorz..!! think i dunno him arz..?? dun b stupid lorz..!!
jus totally dislyk u larz..!! ur attitude makes me puke sia..
p.s. u asked me tuu tell u hw i feel de.. if i made u angry or sad, i'm sorry worz.. or did i made u think bac ur unhappiness..?? i'm really very sorry worz.. i koe u nt happy recently, i understand de.. i wil understand ur coldness de.. ni fang xin.. :]
Friday, February 17, 2006
so damn hurt lorz todae. in de startin of de dae i'm stil quite happi de, cuz gonna tak mui 1st rank later in red cross. oni until after red cross, while i'm goin hm.
after departed with val, i'm walkin hm alone. den suddenly heared mui phone ring. dunno who de fuckin ass ish tat person. nvm, jus pick up. an idiot frm mui pri sch called me, dunno hw tat idiot get mui no. de lorz. call me n sae wad, y u treat HIM liddat, u koe u hurts him alot u koe..?? den i was thinkin, who ish de him, sure ish nt tat *him* lorz, cuz he dunno him lorz. den over there keep scoldin me. wah kau, dun understand wad de fuck u tryin tuu sae lorz. juz tell me him him him. which sucker u tokin abt larz. suddenly fer nth kena scoldin, sae finish den hang up, nv gimme time tuu explain.
i'm already nt very happi tat time liao lorz, ear gt infection. very pain. mornin kena caught by joe so, catch mui ear hole. i put transparent de ear stick oso cnt arz..?? ask me tak out n put on de floor. nvm, i very gd de, follow his instructions lorz. after he has left , tak ear stick frm other hole n put on mui 3rd hole which ish on de bone, very easy close de. juz stand up n prepare tuu run, he catch me agn. sae wad, "i jus catch u n nw u r puttin it bac, wad r u tryin tuu prove..?? ... ... ..." knn, scared close put bac die ish itz..?? i put bac u wil get hurt ish itz..?? den in de end i mus chase de class. dun hav anti-biotics fer de ear at tat time oso, so gt infection lorz. i'm nt de oni one lorz. tat shit put colour de stick summore lorz. wo bu fu..!! ii sure wil bao toh tat shit de..!!
den reach hm, fer nth, kena scoldin frm papa. sae wad y i reach hm so late todae..?? wah lau ehhx, previously i reach hm later den todae lorz. nt abit, bt alot lorz. todae suddenly sot sot de scold me. den there's nth i can do, cuz he ish mui papa marz.
y so mani things happen..?? y i so sway..?? i really feel lyk burstin out juz nw when papa scold me lorz. i gt double promoted, bt y i'm still so sad, i shld b happi de marz. wah lau ehhx, dun wanna live liao larz, wanna die larz..!! bt can i die..?? can i b so irresponsible..?? argh..!! die oso cnt, live oso cnt, wad can i do..??
p.s. wad kind of attitude r u givin me..?? colder n colder..!! i hao xin congratulate u, juz shake mui hand n go. hypocrite..!! a 100% gd senior in front of us, bt a 100% fuckin ass in front of me. dun wanna face u wib a smile animore..!! its tired maintainin tis freindship wib u, where u dun wanna co-operate wib me..
Thursday, February 16, 2006
todae after taf went hm tog wib alicson. we chatted along de way. yak yak yak.. very soon den reach de traffic light lerz, mus part lerz, bt haven chat finish, so stop at traffic n chat. hit de red star of mine, so wad i do..?? cry agn lorz.. so stupid sehz, cryin in front of mui junior.. bt nvm larz, i nt cry until tear keep flowin non-stop those kind larz, juz gt a bit squeezy in mui eyes, so sm drops of tears flow out. den after we finish chattin, we went on our ways.
when i reach hm ish arn 5+ liddat, den mama sae 5 bring me go cut hair, time confirm with de person lerz. phew.. reach hm mama sae time change tuu 6 cuz i late marz. so i went tuu bathe, den online a while. fast fast de, reach 6 liao, so set off frm hm.
reach there saw sumone reborn-ing their hair. i jealous sia. mama sae if i wanna reborn hair, de money i pay myself. damn it, me myself nt enough use liao, wanna go learn guitar oso cnt, where gt extra money reborn hair. at first still wanna me pay fer mui new specs, bt lucky papa win sm money, so he help me pay. phew, save $100 liddat, de rest i pay, gt extra i keep.
wait fer a while mui turn liao, after i cut mama cut. den wait fer a while, mama oso finish cuttin liao, so went bac hm. reach hm de 1st thing i do ish go tie mui hair. damn itz..!! hw come gt so big wave de on mui small little pony tail de..?? hw..?? tmr still mus go sch de lehz.. there ish nth i can do lorz. papa stil over there 'suan' me, sae mui hair unique marz. so ugly sehz, one stupid wave over there.
den untie mui hair, cuz nw short liao, no need tie liao. den go check mui phone, cuz heard ringtone fer new msg. after sms fer a while, den online lerz..
p.s. who do u think u r..?? so wad if u r mui senior, u think ur footdrill really tat gd ar..?? so wad if im in de footdrill workshop, in de workshop means mui footdrill mus b perfect ish itz..?? i koe u dislyk mui nw de attitude, bt wad can i do, i juz simply cant control mui emotions nw lorz. i already tried mui best liao lorz, wad do u still wan..?? u think u nv gimme attitude mehz..?? funny lorz.. ignorin me wheneva u see me, u think i lyk itz ar..?? u r nt liddat las time de lorz. where r u..?? u r juz makin me hatez u lorz..
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
here tuu post de pics i took on sat..
__im readin de screen, so nv pay attention____
__i cropped tis pic____
__dun really wanna tak tis pic____
end of de show..!!
p.s. who really ar u..?? tat anonymous.. r u jet..?? suspicious lor.. if nt hw do u koe wad he ish thinkin..??
Saturday, February 11, 2006
went tuu ang mo kio sec fer a footdrill workshop. wah kau..!! reach there, tak attendance, den do sm theory. juz startin of itz i feel lyk slpin lerz.. look arn, all so awake, all so discipline, nobody laid their heads on de table. bt i really feel lyk slpin worz, heads droppin lerz. how?? endure lorz.. den finally, ma'am sae go parade sq, time tuu do sm practical lerz. wah sai, dunno ish happy or sad. happy tat there ish finally sumthing tat can wake me up. sad tat my footdrill standard very cham lehz, do wrg so malu.. haix, bt stil cnt help itz, mus do de.
den do do do.. keep doin hentak..!! hentak until leg pain sia..!! den my drill slack liao lorz, cnt follow timin. ppl timin on de left, mine oso on de left at 1st, bt as itz goes on, leg very suan liao, very hard tuu lift up, den ppl leftliao , i stil puttin down my right. afterall, kena scoldin frm ma'am.. den their timin oso damn fast de lorz, nt use tuu itz. jwss de timin ish slow de.
do until 4 liddat, they giv break until 4.15. nth do, so me, xianying, kangqi n amani went bac tuu de classrm 1st, cuz we r suppose tuu return tuu de classrm at 4.15 tuu do sm theory agn. tis time nv slp, cuz juz nw do drills do until fully awake lerz.
after abit theory, do practical agn. tis time dun feel lyk doin anything, juz wanna slack slack arn. march i nv lock arms, nv do itz swiftly, giv sm sian sian de attitude. den in de end kena pull out with amani. haix, mui fault, who ask me dun wanna do properly, den they tot i dunno, so pull me out tuu teach alone. den amani ish i think she really dunno. we throw jwss de face sehz, both kena pull out ish frm jwss de. haix.. hopeless..
do do do, ma'am sae mui drill can lerz, wanna go bac anot, den i sae dun wan. i think tuu myself, big squad stress marz, stay there do with amani better, nt so stress. den at arn 5.15 liddat, ma'am sae she cnt do with us lerz, she need go do sm other things. haix, still mus fall bac in de big big squad. den do abt 1 or 2 mins liddat, go bac classrm debreif abit, den do bersurai lerz.
we took bus tuu amk mrt station, den we go on our ways lerz. me, kangqi, amani n shiyun(i think so spelt liddat) took mrt bac tuu boonlay 1st. bt we suddenly change our mind, we went tuu lot 1 tak neos in our full uni, i changed, bt kangqi n amani nv. when cck station, we bid farewell tuu shiyun, den go tak neo lerz. i changed into mui full uni n go tak neos.
tak finish, too late lerz, 7++ reachin 8 lerz, so nv change bac. so go buy sm food den tak train bac tuu boon lay lerz. reach hm.
reach doorstep, no keys, press doorbell nobody ans, call papa, he sae they comin down tuu kopitiam eat. haix.. wad can i do?? go kopitiam tak keys lorz. den brisk walk there, brisk walk bac. reach hm at arn 9 liddat. smell smelly, so bathe. bathe finsh, watch tv. nth watch, write blog.
Friday, February 10, 2006
juz exit frm someone's blog.. feelin damn guilty de.. todae, decided nt tuu listen tuu her.. i still wanna sae a very big SORRY tuu her..
i koe tat u helped me alot, very thankful tuu u.. n u sae tat very little is there tuu help u. but u nv tell me de prob, i dun understand wad ish happenin, u oni tell me hw u felt, hw tuu help?? all i can do ish juz tuu tell dun think so much, dun be sad animore.
really feel very sorry tuu mak u feel so sad n hurt.. u dun need tuu be sorry fer wad u hav done.. i'm in wrg too, i didnt try tuu understand u.. im really very sorry..
i kept de feelins tuu myself cuz i dun wanna worry u too much.. u r takin N' lvl tis yr, i dun u tuu b too stress out in mui probs, mayb sm big probs which i really cnt solve, den i wil approach u..
lets mak a promise.. lets forget abt tis matter can?? can we juz hang out lyk wad we did last time?? every mornin see ur sad sad de face hurts me u koe.. i dun wanna u tuu be sad over me animore..
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
todae gt one of de lesson, visual arts, i cried.. i was drawin n tokin tuu andrea. i told her i really sick of entertainin xx liao lorz.. im jus rather sick of helpin her buy things agn n agn with she nt even payin me a single cent, or rather sumtimes there is nt even a thks.. im her ATM or wad..??
really damn sad tat time.. summore, de night b4, i didnt recieve his reply. im damn worried if he is angry with me or sumthing, i didnt mean tuu ignore him agn lorz.. finally, i cnt tak it lerz, my tears flow n drip onto mui artpiece. andrea saw mui artpiece wet n i kept wipin away sumthing on mui face. finally, she found out tat im cryin.. dunno y i so emotional lorz, dunno y i wil cry in class, i tot im a strong gurl..?? bt luckily, tis shameful scene oni gt yihui n andrea saw n koe it.
im really sick of being de always jokin n happy-go-lucky xinhue lerz.. i really wanna change tuu de real me.. de always hurt n cryin me..
todae oso gt ask him if he really mean tuu be with me den ask me for tat de, or ish he scared tat i wil get hurt, so he asked me to be one. n as i expected, ish bcuz he scared tat i wil ignore him again lyk wad i did in de past..
it really makes me feel lyk dyin lorz.. nt bcuz i koe tat he do nt lyk me or sumthing, its bcuz tat i dun understand myself lorz.. y mui life is liddat de..?? y others ppl life can be so sweet, so nice.. mine ish always full of probs, full of unexpected scene..!! really feel lyk jumpin off de buildin n jus die liddat..!! no need tuu face all these stupid things agn..!!
although im feelin damn depressed now, bt de main purpose of me writin tis entry is tuu let de ppl involve in mui story to do sm soul searchin lorz.. i really dun wanna face u all with de real de me, im puttin a strong front ish all bcuz i stil care abt u all.. i dun wanna u all tuu be worried abt me.. pls respect me sumtimes too lorz. nt bcuz im a happy-go-lucky person means u can play arn with me. i can play with u all too, in fact i lyk tuu joke arn with u all too, bt can u juz dun go overboard..??
koe de limit, koe where tuu stop.. im a human bein oso, i hav feelins too.. can u pls respect me sumtimes, although i may be de smallest amg u all, bt tat doesnt mean i no need respect frm u all. in fact, i dun really need u tuu respect me, bt at least treat me as a human bein, dun treat me as ur toy or wadeva.. ur actions juz break mui heart totally, i dun wanna u all tuu see me oni in mui funeral nex time u see me..
Monday, February 06, 2006
i may look strong outside, i may be a strong gurl..!! bt who understand me down inside?? im bleedin inside..!! bleedin profusely..!! bleed tuu death le..!!
u said nobody is there tuu help u when u r down, den did u help me out?? im feelin damn lost todae, ask u free anot?? sry, need go tak neos.. wad a fuckin reason ish tat..!! i treat u as a trustin fren, n u treat me liddat. when u hav probs, i help u out, no matter how busy i m, n u?? feelin so stupid tuu ask opinion frm u.. fancy me feel lyk cryin juz bcuz of tis kind of stupid fren..
can u imagine hw naive i can be, tot tat u can help me.. mayb i juz disturbed u too much.. so sry..!! u r makin me gettin tuu hatez u more.. juz go tuu ur cadets, who cares if u r leavin..!! juz feels tat im being used by u tuu buy thing, n being ur ATM..
p.s. r u still lookin for clues of de him..?? i think nt, cuz u koe who is de him lerz.. i really dunno hw tuu ans u lorz, cuz i stil dun believe u wil wan such a fat, ugly n stupid gurl lorz.. can u tell me y do u ask for me, there's stil alot of peeps out there, y me..?? its alright if u hav hurt me, i intend tuu forget u anyway.. n sry for givin u de shock , i oso dunno where i gt tis courage tuu tell u..
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
why did i suddenly change de skin?? bcuz of one idiotic selfish cad went tuu delete mui back-up code juz bcuz of de low disk space. sm of mui fav songs which i downloaded were lost too..!! went tuu check his file, all his files were there nicely untouched. idiotic selfish cad..!!
everytime oni thinks fer himself, why mus i giv face him, juz bcuz he is my elder bro or wadeva, mus i tolerate him..?? act as if he cares alot fer me in front of mama. fuckin ass..!! juz bcuz mama ish more bias towards him, i mus tolerate him ish itz..!! fat hope..!! u wil neva get a smile frm me frm nw on..!! serve u right tat ur gurlfren break with u..!! i salute tuu serene fer breakin with u arz..!!
fuck u larz, juz cant stand ur attitude man.. juz bcuz u wanna use de comp den push de whole comp tuu ur rm. u dun own tis comp okay..!! dun b so self-centred can anot..?? i hav already given u de pride in front of ur frens, can understand me anot..?? u r nt de biggest in de hse..!! if really wanna see de contributions given tuu de family, u hav no rights tuu stay in tis hse lorz..!!
so wad if u r a 100% ah-beng, i wil neva b scared of u..!! so wad if u hav joined de gang b4, mayb u r juz a dog tuu them, ghost koe..!! so dun eva think tat im de smallest in de hse n i wil b scared of u or rather mama..!! ITS A NO WAY THROUGH..!!
p.s. ii can see bloodshed in de near future.. feel so good tuu see u in a pool of blood..
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can note de difference..??
actual photo.. ( juz hatez itz..!! )
mui workpiece..!! *clap clap*
