Sunday, January 29, 2006
taken on red cross talentime de comp.. jwss didnt win anything yet i felt nothin.. black hearted de me..
suppose meet him todae, bt my legg gt inffection. yesterdae fall down durin P.E lesson. bt i act strong, didnt go report tuu teacher, continue runnin. den after sch gt red cross, didnt report sick or wadeva, i continue do footdrill. bcuz i didnt clean my wound straight away, continue do things tat affect my legg, so gt abit inffection.. haix..!! stubborn larz..!!
yesterdae chated with him over sms. he gt sm prob, cant help him solve much, i feel so bad.. after sms, chat on phone abit.. neva tok much, feel very akward lehz.. so malu..!! i cry lerz, bt nt with those kind of sniffin sound, juz gt tears streamin down. dunno why i cry, juz feel abit sad sad de..
chatted until 1 plus or 2 plus liddat, forgot lerz.. oni koe chatted fer abt 1 hr liddat. den he sae tired, wanna slp, so sae byebye loh.. by de time end call my tap off lerz, no more drippin waters lerz.. den pack pack de place fer awhile, cuz i mak until very messy, den go slp le. i toss arn my bed fer arn half an hr liddat b4 i really get tuu slp.
den tis mornin wake up at arn 11 plus liddat. 1st thing i did ish knock my injured knee on de floor. obviously ish accidentally de, n very pain oso. didnt tak much notice of where m i goin, trip on my big tigger plush toy. so ' eeeew.. POM..!! '.. fall down.. pain.. nvm, endure pain, check check wound, heal abit lerz, bt gt inffection, sad n pain..
den den go brush up, dun feel lyk bathin, so nv bathe, very dirty de me.. den watch tv awhile den eat lunch, eat steamboat cum 'barbecue'.. nt much appetite, eat abit, do pattern fer papa n mama tuu see, den watch tv agn.
den suddenly gt phone call, papa pick up. aiyaz..!! peipei call, she sae i nv reply her sms n didnt ans her call. so i went tuu check my phone. really gt miss call n sms worz, y nobody in de hse gt hear itz de?? all gt AP ish itz??
den watch tv whole dae. mama n jiejie bz with hse de things. i use i lame lerz as a stupid reason nt tuu help out. so slack slack all dae do nothin. cuz wake up too early lerz, still very sleepy, so watch tv watch until i fell asleep le..
at arn 8 liddat, papa wake me up. late lerz, so go bathe, den nv eat dinner, continue watch tv.. den dunno wad i do, oni koe gt play jiejie laptop at arn midnight 1 plus liddat, b4 i change bac tuu de comp n write tis entry..
p.s. why suddenly so akward arz?? ii think ii really did sumthing wrg tis time lerz.. so sry..!!
p.s. todae new year eve, cnt slp.. haix..!! hatez new year..!! so o-biang..!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
sorry worz, previous entry de words abit harsh.. i dunno y i wil sae out all those words, mayb im too vexed ler bah, too stress in sm personal probs.. abit agitated oso..
bt nw feel better lerz, with sm help frm my fren.. thks thks..
nth too much tuu sae, bt took sm pics over de period of me nt updatin my blog.. show euu sm..
-> taken at siokhui hse de lobby
-> tis iish mui 2nd kiss tuu sumone.. guess who iish de 1st??
-> we nth do in de nite, so tak photo..
-> while waitin fer de comp tuu load tak de..
there r still alot pics of mui in de last link under shots of tis blog.. if euu r free, can mak a trip there tuu look at de rest of de pics..
Sunday, January 15, 2006
gt his mail reply todae. i shld b happy, bt y do i cry?? WAD DE HELL ISH HAPPENEIN TUU ME?? cryin over sumbody ish a very stupid thing tuu do, bt y do i did it?? pourin out my probs tuu my fren, expectin her tuu help me solve everything, didnt think tat m i disturbin her anot?? i trust euu de most, bt i wil disturb euu, i hav no other peeps tuu turn tuu, bt euu r busy..
wad m i doin?? cryin n writin tis blog?? writin tis with almost everybody dunno wad ish happenin, rely everything on euu, cryin over tis prob times n times agn, writin a blog which i dunno who ish really de true fren of mine tuu bother tuu waste their time tuu read tis stupid blog. im sorry, dun bother tuu read my blog anymore, it wil b a waste of time.. im sorry.. :[
Thursday, January 12, 2006
juz nw watch Reachin For The Stars on channel u. gt 2 part i watch until i cry. y suddenly i become so emotional huh?? dunno..
de 1st part i cry ish where xiaorou n leilei r celebratin their birthdae tog. once, xiaorou, leilei n renjie promise each other tat they wil celebrate their birthdae tog. bt renjie thinks tat she did sumthing wrg, so she adviod all her frens. she hid behind a car n peek at xiaorou n leilei celebrate. although renjie did nt turn up fer de celebration, bt xiaorou n leilei did nt forget abt her, they wished her happy birthdae oso. renjie saw it while she was hidin behind de car, she very touched tat they did nt forget abt her, so she cried. i oso touched by them, so i cry le. everybody thinks tat renjie ish runnin away frm reality. bcuz she thinks tat she did sumthing wrg, so she hides frm all her frens.
if renjie ish runnin away frm reality, den wad abt me?? m i runnin away frm reality too?? juz bcuz i feel ... fer him, i break with him. after tat i keep advoidin him. juz lyk renjie feels tat she has did sumthing wrg, so she leave zhou family n de company, den she advoid all her frens. do our character looks alike?? thinkin of tis qn fer de whole commercial break.
den de 2nd part which mak me cry ish zhenghao n renjie patch. damn touchin de. bt if it ish las time, i wun cry over tis kind of storyline, bt y do i cry tis time??
wad had happened tuu me?? y do i change so much after tis 2 mths??
chat with my fren over sms agn todae. told her tat no matter hw hard i try, i stil cannot trust myself. she asked me tuu do sm soul searchin of where hav itz gt wrg. soul searchin?? ive done tat fer 2mths le. recently solved 1 of my probs, relieve abit. bt stil dun hav de faith in myself. ive change alot. las time i was those kind of person tat craps alot, jokes alot. bt recently i hav lesser jokes, lesser smile, lesser laughter. (gt tis frm my fren) y do i change?? wad made me change?? who made me change??
p.s. peipei, m i botherin euu with my probs?? can tell me if i hav.. so i wil nt bother euu so much, i wil giv euu time tuu rest..
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
juz here tuu explain y i change de skin of my bog.
gt reader of my blog tell me tat de box ish too small, therefore it squeeze de words of my blog n make my entry too long, read until very tired. so she asked me tuu change itz. im lazy tuu go find 1 more skin agn, neither m i so free tuu waste time go make 1, so i juz use 1 frm de template.
hope u wil b glad with tis layout. ive kept de tag board, so u can still tag ur feelins of me, or tell me sumthing through there.
p.s. thks fer helpin me sort out my probs n cheer me up times n times. euu r really a gd fren tuu make, really.. .. ..
Saturday, January 07, 2006
why did everyone keep sayin tat im avoidin them?? i rmb i recieved a msg in friendster, frm a guy, askin me why do i keep advoidin him. i deleted de msg rite away, pretend as if i didnt recieve de msg. i gt speacial reasons fer me to do so, so i hope tat he wil understand, dun wanna see him agn, wanna forget him, tats why i advoid him.
den yesterdae i recieved a sms frm another of my fren. she asked me m i advoidin him?? im nt advoidin her, why do she asked?? did i do sumthing wrong?? i asked her, she nv reply me, she changed de subject. wad did i do tuu mak her feel liddat?? i dun wanna lose another fren agn, i trust her a lot, i dun wanna lose another trustin fren.
i gt another fren asked me tat too.. bt i explained tuu her tat we r of diff class nw, abit hard tuu contact. nt i adviod her, ish tat hard tuu speak tuu her. if we meet, ish tat im in a rush, cant speak her tuu her, nt tat i ignored her. n she understanded itz, glad tat she understand me.
why do both of my trustin fren asked me tis qn?? did i do sumthing wrong tat makes them feels liddat?? wad had happened?? if i really did sumthing wrong can tell me, i wil surely change fer euu.. i already dun hav much frens, i dun wanna lose anymore.. im feelin really very down nw..
p.s. dun think so much, dun walk my path.. if euu carry on lyk tis, im afraid tat euu will need a long time tuu adjust bac, jus lyk me, i used abt 1 mth time tuu adjust bac las time, jus thinkin of itz day n night. n itz jus nt long ago, itz jus happened in nov'2005. nt oni tat prob, ive been thinkin of other things too larz, i admit. promise me, dun think so much negative things, think more positively.. i rmb i gt 1 fren tell me b4, believe tat everything wil end one day, itz wun carry on lyk tis fer de res of ur life. leave everything tuu de fate tuu plan fer euu, juz follow wad fate asked euu tuu do n do itz with pride.
Friday, January 06, 2006
dunno shld i b happy or sad tat im nt involved in de footdrill comp. happy tat i no need go thru de tired tired de trainin, sad tat im nt involved, means footdrill still nt up tuu standard. haix.. forget abt it!! involved means involved, nt involved means nt involved; involved den do my bes, nt involved den wish them gd luck in de comp.
came hm after red cross todae, when came hm caught in de rain, very fun, long time no get into de rain lerz. when reach hm very lazy, dun wanna go bathe, in results kena big scoldin frm papa. haix.. his mood nt gd todae.
after bathe out, i go watch Reachin For The Stars. xiaozhi die, renjie reaction very touchin, gt cry abit. renjie decided tuu leave zhenghao, see zhenghao very poorthing, gt cry abit oso, den show end lerz. why me cry huh?? why me suddenly so emotional huh?? recently nt myself..
den mama bring hair-dryer tuu me, ask me dry my hair properly. cuz juz nw wash hair nv dry my hair properly, stil gt water drippin. i dun wan dry larz, so i chase her out of my rm lorz. den she very de bad lorz. she go complain tuu my papa over such a small thing, den todae papa mood no gd marz, so he scold me agn. den i was those kind of very stubborn de, dun wan means dun wan, so he angry de go rm tak his belt n den come n whack me lorz. pain sehz.. can let de water drip n it wil dry eventually 1 rite!! mus i dry itz if i dun wan tuu?? i koe its nt gd fer me, bt long long once wun die 1 rite!! mus i listen tuu every of ur command?? im ur daughter, nt ur dog!! i hav my own opinion oso lorz, can listen tuu my opinion sumtimes?? im 14 nw, nt 4!! can u treat me as a human being oso!!
todae gt hmk, i wanna try finish itz buy todae, i wanna try tuu change my study style, tryin nt tuu slp in class, tryin tuu reach fer 3e1 durin my tis yr streamin.. so end here lerz, byebye.. mayb wun update my blog everydae, gt anything can call me.. (provided tat u hav de no.)
p.s. sorry fer my change of attitude towards u all.. if u dun lyk my nw de attitude, can tell me as ur wish, i wil try tuu change it fer euu..
p.s drawin given by my fren..
Thursday, January 05, 2006
yesterdae gt footdrill comp de selection after sch.. me gt attend, gt sirs n ma'am oso. we for de 1st dunno hw mani hrs we gt trainin, den fer de las dunno hw mani hrs ish selection. rmb gt 1 part very funny..
sir sae after he giv 20 commands, sure oni left at most quater of de squad (we mus fall out once we did de wrong command). in de end left half, bt his las command gt queries, den he try tuu explain, try tuu prove tat he ish right, we r wrong. so tat our squad will nt left so much ppl, so tat his prediction, his "lookin down" of us wil b right, he wil save face fer his correct prediction. den dunno wad shit happen, those who fall out form another squad themselves, n they will follow sir de command. den gt 1 command, in which u mus form a line frm de tallest tuu de shortest, wait fer another command, den u mus name urself 1 n 2 (in malay lang.) one by one by shoutin ur no. out loud. den we, those who fall out, wanna shout after they completed shoutin (tryin tuu play play). bt when we shout until half, we saw them continuin other commands, dun wanna care abt us. den we was lyk "..." ..
bt durin de trainin, i didnt do very well on de silver accred de, cuz i eat too full le durin de after noon, i ate MOS burgur, cost $7.50 liddat, heart pain. so, when do gt strange strange de feelin, no good, so didnt do very well. den durin selection, dunno wad i doin, gt alot of things arn me fer me tuu see, cnt concentrate. haix.. in or out fated larz.. dun feel lyk joinin oso, very stressful nehz, all seniors, nt much sec 2s lyk me goin fer de selection..
p.s. sorry.. forgot write yesterdae, bt promise my fren tuu tell her sumthing abt de selection, so write todae..
p.s. sumthing abt Bleach anime, recently readin tis comic.. tryin tuu find Rumbling Hearts de comic, if euu koe where gt sell can tag me n tell me, thks thks..
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
todae 1st dae of sch in yr 2006.. everything has started anew fer me.
tis yr de form teacher is a indian. 1st sight see her, my enthusiasm half gone. get tuu koe her teachin method, de res of my enthusiasm gone. die!! hw tuu spend de res of my year with her?? she teach me eng lehz, main course subject lehz, die fer sure liao.. eng no need pass liao..
las 2 period todae math. teacher miss pang heng hoon. die!! whole of my sec1 class all dun lyk her, of cuz includes me. everytime can hear her shoutin at e3, poorthing them. tis time fer me tuu die liao.. math mus depend on my own liao..
after sch go meet fer red cross de things. tmr den select de cadets fer de comp. yesh!! muz brush up on my drill, so tat i can b chosen. bt frankly speakin, nt tat interested in it, see seniors tis yr do de comp, train till wanna die liddat, nw confuse.
after meetin go jp buy things, den go pizza hut eat. order baked pasta, wanna share amg all, in de end almost all i eat. very full..
come hm, rest. night fall, do hmk. 1st dae gt hmk, all thks tuu miss pang. slack slack abit on work, didnt do tat neat lyk las yr. den online, chat awhile on msn, write blog..
p.s. tell me if de font ish too small fer euu tuu see, i wil change bac tuu de normal 1..
p.s. todae de attitude nt tat gd, sorry.. nt in mood, bt wil try tuu put up a strong front fer euu nt tuu worry..
p.s. pic of yuna, my fav character in final fantasy.
