Saturday, January 07, 2006
why did everyone keep sayin tat im avoidin them?? i rmb i recieved a msg in friendster, frm a guy, askin me why do i keep advoidin him. i deleted de msg rite away, pretend as if i didnt recieve de msg. i gt speacial reasons fer me to do so, so i hope tat he wil understand, dun wanna see him agn, wanna forget him, tats why i advoid him.
den yesterdae i recieved a sms frm another of my fren. she asked me m i advoidin him?? im nt advoidin her, why do she asked?? did i do sumthing wrong?? i asked her, she nv reply me, she changed de subject. wad did i do tuu mak her feel liddat?? i dun wanna lose another fren agn, i trust her a lot, i dun wanna lose another trustin fren.
i gt another fren asked me tat too.. bt i explained tuu her tat we r of diff class nw, abit hard tuu contact. nt i adviod her, ish tat hard tuu speak tuu her. if we meet, ish tat im in a rush, cant speak her tuu her, nt tat i ignored her. n she understanded itz, glad tat she understand me.
why do both of my trustin fren asked me tis qn?? did i do sumthing wrong tat makes them feels liddat?? wad had happened?? if i really did sumthing wrong can tell me, i wil surely change fer euu.. i already dun hav much frens, i dun wanna lose anymore.. im feelin really very down nw..
p.s. dun think so much, dun walk my path.. if euu carry on lyk tis, im afraid tat euu will need a long time tuu adjust bac, jus lyk me, i used abt 1 mth time tuu adjust bac las time, jus thinkin of itz day n night. n itz jus nt long ago, itz jus happened in nov'2005. nt oni tat prob, ive been thinkin of other things too larz, i admit. promise me, dun think so much negative things, think more positively.. i rmb i gt 1 fren tell me b4, believe tat everything wil end one day, itz wun carry on lyk tis fer de res of ur life. leave everything tuu de fate tuu plan fer euu, juz follow wad fate asked euu tuu do n do itz with pride.
